In some ways I hate the job. In some ways I love it. I love the way putting a file together feels final and together. And sometimes it is possible to feel on top of things.

What made me get into Escrow. I have no idea. I feel overwhelmed and beaten down by it already, and it's only been 2 months. Still trying to find the right way to do things. A way to keep myself sane, yet still get things done. A way to do my job, and not get dragged down by things. A way not to be myself. Not to notice the mechanics of the way the office runs. Not get annoyed at the little things.