Today I worked out of the Castro office. It was nice to be in a "storefront" office again. It's very small, so the personalities are close together - but it's a nice group there now. I didn't like one of the other officers when I interviewed there before and now she is gone. It's nice to be needed - and it was nice to fit in really well. All the girls are like me and not all froofy :-) I'll have to think about it...

Today I did my first Draw. My first Escrow Instructions. My first Closing Statement. I drew up a Grant Deed.

I feel so smart and powerful. I feel happy and interested. I love the people that I work with and I am so glad to go to work each day. There is always a new challenge.

It makes me tired, though. And I fear for my wrists.

In some ways I hate the job. In some ways I love it. I love the way putting a file together feels final and together. And sometimes it is possible to feel on top of things.

What made me get into Escrow. I have no idea. I feel overwhelmed and beaten down by it already, and it's only been 2 months. Still trying to find the right way to do things. A way to keep myself sane, yet still get things done. A way to do my job, and not get dragged down by things. A way not to be myself. Not to notice the mechanics of the way the office runs. Not get annoyed at the little things.